Quotes (#45)

Strangely enough, on this Monday morning, I am doing "Bitchin'" because it's Monday and that means Ignite Me by Tahereh Mafi comes out in less than 24 hours!!! I can't wait to get my hands on this book! So in the spirit of the conclusion of one of my beloved series, today quotes will be all from the first two book and from one of the novellas. 

"I spent my life folded between the pages of books. In the absence of human relationship I formed bonds with paper characters. I lived love and loss through stories threaded in history; I experienced adolescence by association. My world is one interwoven web of words, stringing limb to limb, bone to sinew, thoughts and images all together. I am a being comprised of letters, a character created by sentences, a figment of imagination formed through fiction." - Tahereh Mafi, Shatter Me

"All I ever wanted was to read out and touch another human being not just with my hands but with my heart." - Tahereh Mafi, Shatter Me

"You think that because I am unwanted, because I am neglected and-and discarded-" My voice inches higher with every word, the unrestrained emotions suddenly screaming through my lungs. "You think I don't have a heart? You think I don't feel? You think that because I can inflict pain, that I should? You're just like everyone else. You think I'm some monster just like everyone else. You don't understand me at all." - Tahereh Mafi, Shatter Me

"I've come to believe that the most dangerous man in the world is the one who feels no remorse. The one who never apologizes and therefore seeks no forgiveness. Because in the end it is our emotions that make us weak, not our actions." - Tahereh Mafi, Destroy Me

"Torture is not torture when there's any hope of relief." - Tahereh Mafi, Destroy Me

"Loneliness is a strange sort of thing. 

It creeps on you, quiet and still, sits by your side in the dark, strokes by your hair as you sleep. It wraps itself around your bones, squeezing so tight you almost can't breathe. It leaves lies in your heart, lies next to you at night, leaches the light out of every corner. It's a constant companion, clasping your hand only to yank you down when you're struggling to stand up.

You wake up in the morning and wonder who you are. You fail to fall asleep at night and tremble in your skin. You doubt you doubt you doubt.

do I

don't I

should I

why won't I

And even when you're ready to let go. When you're ready to break free. When you're ready to be brand-new. Loneliness is an old friend who stand beside you in the mirror, looking you in the eye, challenging to live your life without it. You can't find the words to fight yourself, to fight the words screaming that you're not enough never enough never ever enough.

Loneliness is a bitter, wretched companion.

Sometimes it just won't let go." Tahereh  Mafi, Unravel Me

"You destroy me."

"Juliette," he says and mouths the name, barely speaking at all, and he pouring molten lava into my limbs and I never even knew I could melt straight to death.

"I want you," he says. 

He says "I want all of you. I want you inside and out and catching your breath and aching for me like I ache for you." He says it like it's a lit cigarette lodge in his throat, like he wants to dip me in warm honey and he says "It's never been a secret. I've never tried to hide that from you. I've never pretended I wanted anything less."

"You-you said you wanted f-friendship-"

"Yes," he says, he swallows, "I did. I do. I do want to be your friend." He nods and I register the slight movement in the air between us. "I want to be the friend you fall hopelessly in love with. The one you take into your arms and into your bed and into the private world you keep trapped in your head. I want to be that kind of friend," he says. "The one who will memorize the things you say as well as the shape of your lips when you say them. I want to know every curve, every freckle, every shiver of your body, Juliette-"

"No," I gasp. "Don't-don't s-say that-"
"I want to know where to touch you," he says. "I want to know how to touch you. I want to know how to convince you to design a smile just for me." I feel his chest rising, falling, up and down and up and down and "Yes," he says. "I do want to be your friend." He says "I want to be your best friend in the entire world."

"I want so many things," he whispers. "I want your mind. Your strength. I want to be worth your time." His fingers graze the hem of my top and he says "I want this up." He tugs on the waist of my pants and says " I want these down." He touches the tips of his fingers to the sides of my body and says, "I want to feel your skin on fire. I want to feel your heart racing next to mine and I want to know it's racing because of me, because you want me. Because you never," he says, he breathes, "never want me to stop. I want every second. Every inch of you. I want all of it."

And I drop dead, all over the floor.

"Juliette."

I can't understand why I can still hear him speaking because I'm dead, I'm already dead, I've died over and over and over again.

He swallows, hard, his chest heaving, his words a breathless, shaky whisper when he says "I'm so-I'm so desperately in love with you." - Tahereh Mafi, Unravel Me

And I died. That scene in Unravel Me totally killed me. 

And so with Ignite Me releasing tonight, I'm vibrating with excitement and sadness because I finally knows how it will end. Who else is counting down the hours for this release? I know I can't be the only one.